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heartbreaker.
♥ aleneeeee.blogspot.com
Monday, October 16, 2006
my heart goes like how it is above upon seeing his blog. i thought i was happy for him that his heart is with some other girl & going well, but i have totally no idea why am i feeling this way. jealousy & sadness fills, kinda sucky feeling. for one moment, i was so melted by him & another moment, this came along. the feeling's horrible. yes, life is filled with ups & downs but its like im experiencing more ups than downs? when is the sun going to come out from the gloomy days? i dont know when can i last until. its getting really hard to just hide everything & pretend that nothing has happened.
so its the first day of school today. i dont know that i have to go for HS1034, so i dint attend the lecture, but rushed down for tutorial instead. not much of things done, mostly just overview of the module & some other craps. lessons finished at 2pm, went home after that since nobody asks me out. but it wasnt that bad after all, at least i get to see him during lunch. but then...
an embarrassing moment happened again yesterday, but during training. mixed training as usual on sundays, my pad started leaking which i dont know why, perhaps i dint place it properly or was there way too much blood since its the 2nd day. people sitting all around me are guys. started pouring water in to clear then bail water out, but it was not much of help. wanted to change seat, but they said they dont mind cos its quite normal. one of them even joked that they'll cut themselves so they'll bleed along with me. :D but the leaking stopped after a while, so it isnt so bad. sorry for the inconvenience caused.
something is really getting on my nerves: selfish people. selfish-ness at times is nothing wrong because selfishness DOES exist in every single one of us, BUT there's a limit to everything you see. people cant be giving in to every single one of us in whichever way we wants, this is SOCIETY we're talking about, it consist of many other people & everyone have their rights & say, its not for one person or one group of people alone. being nice doesnt make one friendlier, but in turn, more detestable. if only that one in some other places i dont know, im getting impatient.
you became the light on the dark side of me, but you're still my favourite mistake. (:
| 6:29 PM |
KISSED.
my heart goes like how it is above upon seeing his blog. i thought i was happy for him that his heart is with some other girl & going well, but i have totally no idea why am i feeling this way. jealousy & sadness fills, kinda sucky feeling. for one moment, i was so melted by him & another moment, this came along. the feeling's horrible. yes, life is filled with ups & downs but its like im experiencing more ups than downs? when is the sun going to come out from the gloomy days? i dont know when can i last until. its getting really hard to just hide everything & pretend that nothing has happened.