the feeling is back. that particular lost feeling that alene's been getting some time ago. the feeling of being forgotten by people. no particular one but just everyone in general. seriously miss those times spent together, from the most common thing such as playing pool to the lamest thing like meeting up & do nothing. everything is a used-to thing now.
my job as a pacer sucks totally. i cant seem to do anything right at all. everything seems to be going wrong in whatever i do. today's rowing was terrible for me & was pissing me off during some parts. im a total failure.
is it so hard just go get people's attention? bitchiness & lovable-ness does run the show, i cant probably act like one when im not. keeping everything to oneself is good sometimes, people dont deem you as being annoying & a person with problems that cannot be resolved. win-win situation.
many patients asked me if im singaporean. do i look not singaporean? a few was blabbering to me in hokkien, cute though, able to communicate with them better as maybe they feel more comfortable in speaking dialects. old people can be really cute too. :D
abs aching. feels good totally. but somewhere at the tail bone bruised.
race's next week. heard that the team's name gonna be changed to MUSHU. nice name for a tertiary team like us eh. sound like some tapioca in chinese.
played at the playground with dennis amanda kwangli kellyn pohchoon junwen. 7 of us who're already in polytechnic, oldest being a 22years old guy with me being the youngest who is 17+, were playing crocodile & catching with 4 kids, ranging from 9years old to 13years old. running with them trains one's cardiovascular system, they never seems to get tired. lunch-ed at boon keng, played at playground, homehome. definitely feels good to be feeling like a kid again where memories with childhood friends start to flood back in my mind.
properties at the ward went missing & that includes patients' one. staff nurses with all the gloomy faces in whatever they do & that make things scary. even our very own things at the staff tearoom went missing. truth is: the things were stolen by somebody amongst us. somebody else is a suspect, from what i heard from somebody but cant be confirmed. shant talk much about it. HAHA. definitely not a student, they're all nice people. (:
lastly, i dint know that he has such a event with his looks & bods. *drools*