johnson said something about team bonding yesterday during training & keeps ringing in my head up till now:
"is team bonding so easily described with two words? doesnt mean you all have lunch together after training is bonding, doesnt mean you all hang out & go out together often is bonding. im pretty disappointed in your school having to see distinctive cliques around. because you all are in the same school, you all see each other often around, so you all shouldnt be having distinctive cliques. & all that you all say is team bonding but i dont see any difference."
agreed with him when he said things about "distinctive cliques". observed the team yesterday & today, doubts were cleared & indeed what johnson said was true. total admiration for TPDB: warm-ups done together properly as a team, lined up without having to choose the rowers beside & not dilly-dallying, respect & not ABCD-ing with their captains. this what i called a strong team. :/
today training again. overslept as usual, cabbed down. bad day started with a blooody crow stealing my precious breakfast, so eeeky. those crows should be be shoot bang bang & die instantly, they're causing so much disruption to people. they attack, steal food, stinks, spread diseases, dread them. some things during training were making me pissed but its best to zip one mouth's up as some things are best left unsaid.
he was on busy status when i was online. after she came online, his status changed to online almost immediately. coincidence? (: i doubt we'll be talking/chatting to each other anytime soon. me, being just a tool used to get close to her. the irony: i still do yearn for him, like WTFFFF AM I THINKING. this suck, seriously. im going to have another piercing soon, just to direct my pain there, like how jamie did.
to girly: hey, dont worry too much. be brave, be strong. me & her will tide through this with you. cry if you need to, scream & shout if you need to, you have the right to do so. dont bother what others have to say, you make your own firm stand. i know its not going to be easy, but endure with it. the listening ears will always be here for you, the support will always be there for you. (: