Friday, November 30, 2007
last moments of boonsan, jeremy, reuben & i realised thatpeople will only start cherishing the people around them when the demise of someone dear to them hit them, i admit that im one of them. after this incident, i really do cherish everybody, even if i dont really like them, especially those who're in dragonboating with me too.
nurul was saying that somehow you can feel that you're going to pass on, there seems to be signs of it in some way & i really agree. reading one of their blog, he mentioned that he'd the instinct that something bad will happen at cambodia & it came true; a post on 23oct mentioning that he'll go to heaven in 3week's time, he did but on 23nov.
but at least they're safe now.
i was one of the 1500 people who attended the memorial service. jeremy's brother mentioned about asking the 5 of them to take care of each other like how they did in life as a team, i couldnt help but imagine them waiting for each other while their bodies take turns to be cremated.
& images of reuben kept appearing in my mind, how my batchmates will be behaving hysterically when he runs/walks past us at sdba/races.
the last time i held the book of scriptures & songs, going to mandai crematorium, was 3years ago, attending a young man's funeral. this time, im holding the book of scriptures & songs again, going to mandai crematorium again, attending many other young man's funeral again. this is life & i have to take it as it is, cant do much about it.
& i couldnt remember when's the last time i cried so badly too. my eyes are dry, painful & puffy from all the cryings. there's no more tears to be squeezed out from them, but some of the things which some of their family members said kept coming back to me - "remember their smiles, their personalities & the people they are; when you go home, dont forget to kiss & hug your parents, tell them that you really love them, cherish those around you too".
i've yet to done that & i'll start doing it from now on.
definitely, i'll remember them, always.
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KISSED.
last moments of boonsan, jeremy, reuben & i realised thatpeople will only start cherishing the people around them when the demise of someone dear to them hit them, i admit that im one of them. after this incident, i really do cherish everybody, even if i dont really like them, especially those who're in dragonboating with me too.